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[18 Jun 2005|02:47pm] she chose shane... it is now over and im as good as dead.. 1 comment|post comment

Drown [12 Apr 2005|01:50pm] No matter where you are, I can still hear you when you dream. You travel very far, you travel far like a star... and you are. All those yesterdays... coming down. Yesterday the sky was you. and I still feel the same. nothing here for me to do.. and I still feel the same.. I wish I wish, I could fly. I wish I wish, I could lie. I will I will, try. I will, I will, goodbye. 2 comments|post comment

[04 Feb 2005|01:44pm] last night jess and i went to see otep and american head charge. the show was good but otep played better when we saw them at the ogden. i have decided to give up pot. i know ive told myself 100 times before the same thing but the whole concept of being str8 edge doesnt seem to be a bad one. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------- so spike and i wasted an hour AND a half on trying to find this place so we can get our schedule but we couldnt find it. now i get to go bug bonnie about the location of this place instead of trusting spike to know where it is at. at least i get to see jessie sooner i hope. last night was really cool but the best part about it was beating her ass in sonic the hedge hog!! she thinks she won so i will let her think that for now.. hehehe ...scooter 1 comment|post comment

[22 Nov 2004|04:13pm] just finished 5 ten hour shifts at the paramount for warren millers "impact" talk about being tired. thank god for jessie though she has helped me pull through so much stress. from the billy corgan ticket that i couldnt get up to the cleaning of my place. god i love her. i already consider myself married in the sense as i havent any desire to be with anyone else. i bought her a engagement ring that i had to borrow money from my mom for 3700 bucks!! but allow me to tell you i have so much thought and effort put into the ring that she will smile everytime she sees it. i am so pleased with my life right now my relationship is improving slowly one day at a time. there were some things i didnt tell her at first and kinda was ashamed to tell her but her and i talked it through and now i have a strong feeling that things will work out just fine between the two of us. afterall she is one of the most compasionate understanding souls i have ever known. not to mention i have never trusted anyone with all of me the way i do with her.she is my everything and nothing could ever change that. there is another thing i noticed..some people from my past are trying to participate in my currant life and this is my only request that anyone i may have known or been aquinted with from the past i am merely asking one last time ..please do not attempt to contact me anylonger i have a new llife i enjoy and do not wish to attempt to pursue a meaningless frienship with peers that could only lead me back into trouble. now im sure we may have been cool in the past but i am no longer on your side of the country so do us both a favor and move on with your life as i have clearly donr with mine. thanks for understanding ...scooter 3 comments|post comment

[08 Oct 2004|01:35pm] i feel like total shit today. i dont have any reason outside of that chicken i ate yesterday. my head is pounding i gave up on work today..4 hours was enough for me..i would have stayed til six its just my head hurts that bad...i changed some shit on my space cause of a brief misunderstanding...i hope everything is clear now.. ok so i have 1 hell of a surprise for little miss jessica but i wont tell her just yet what it is..hehe being evil has its rewards. ...scooter post comment

life is ironicly pleasant [03 Oct 2004|06:27pm] october 23rd @soiled dove 10:15 p.m. yours truly with billy corgan need i say more? ....scooter p.s. tickets are sold out dont bother!! post comment

[01 Aug 2004|10:30pm] hello little world of somebodys been busy latly with the whole jessica-de-mayo her and i are an item now so i guess that means that youll have to cancel your subscription.better luck never again. im working my ass off working for the democratic national party. 15 bucks an hour whos complaining though! i was supposed to work the van halen concert today but when i showed up they were full staffed, i guess some losers were waiting for an hour to work...ha some people. i really dont have much to say other than the only thing i do other than work is chill with me girl. shes a keeper as ol gran pa would say. (she unlocks my door) ok thats it for now kids ------------------------------------- ...scooter post comment

without transgression. [04 Jun 2004|04:22pm] okay im still alive from those impatient thoughts of what we never had. i guess things could be something else. hmm..not much to say here.. ive been doing alot that i could speak of but id rather you pretend to care enough to wonder.. going to see ms. courtney love in july im not sure if that is a positive or negative though.. scooter post comment

goodtimes for sell [13 May 2004|05:01pm] im still alive.. been busy with this whole work thing and trying to keep people from just randomly stopping over. josh is with kayla now. i hate that fucking whore. she tried to sell me out the other day saying shit thata wasnt true.but as the old saying goes..."bros b4 hoes" and thats all there is to it. i have been chillin with jessika-de-mayo alot latley...no im not getting soft just enjoy the company.. i tried to call kyla to chill with us but her phone is off or something. i kinda miss hanging with her but not britnah..that bitch can burn in hell!! late...... 1 comment|post comment

kill snoop dogg [30 Mar 2004|10:15pm] yeah so turns out i have to wait till sunday till we move in. sooo that means i have to bump the date of the ho down. but any how on the 10th we are gonna go to the bluebird. i guess groundeds last show is at pinkies so since sarah is going to be there doing sound for them i guess ill make an attempt to see them. im tired and sippin on malibu and coke right now. what a combination huh? ...scooter post comment

scooter is dead [28 Mar 2004|04:11pm] im at a loss for words.. even if i werent they could be of no use. im sorry for wasting your time post comment

now i know you [28 Mar 2004|01:57am] i have these words in the back of my throat that i've been dying to say.. next time we'll be perfect post comment

these bonds are shackle free [20 Mar 2004|02:39am] okay so went downtown to check out the place and it wasnt what we wanted so we went to a few other places coming to this hi-rise. at first i thought it may have been to up scale for me because not only do hirises cost a fortune in naples but its for the white collars. but it turns out our budget was 775 a month and we found ...now get this.. a penthouse for 725 a month. the view is breath taking and it is right in the middle of downtown. the application has been filled out ...pre approved and all that jazz. the guy said it will be ready by april 1st!! i cant begin to tell you how stoked i am about this place. for once in my life i will have something that not only do i value and am very proud of, but i know what i have and dont plan on taking it for granted like i have so many things in the past. for once things seem to be going as planned. funny how i think back to a time in my life and remember asking tara if she would. but she didnt know.i remember the conditions i set for myself to be living in before i would ask her to be certain. funny how once i finally achieved what i set out for i ended up being happy but not complete. sweet pea saying i miss that time of hate. scooter saying.. "missing it more than i should" post comment

[01 Mar 2004|10:51pm] ok so ive been busy i guess. i went and saw against me last sat with josh edward and melody. kristin and jennie showed up to late and it was sold out. it was a good show but one thing kinda pissed me off. as josh and i were waiting to get tickets i saw the bassist for grabass charlestons and i went up to him and said what up and all that shit and we got to talking and i stated that i seen them before in miami but when i told him where he said that they had only played at churchills. this being bullshit resulted in an arguement because i knew i was right. so after they played he came up to me and said he remembered playing that show after all. some people get on my nerves. ok so this chick down at mixed up creations has this whole im hardcore crust look going for her. everytime josh and i go there she makes attempts to socialise. the first impression i got was she was down and out. well turns out shes all about the image. how misleading. i thought i had found a gem..turns out she was all worn down. i have found myself reflecting on the past way too much. although it is just thoughts of memories,ones i cherish more now then when i did when it was the present. my life is rather pleasant now but for some reason the "times" i had back then are more comforting . on another note i am doing the music thing again i have to get ahold of jerad for practice. the whole idea is my and the bands vision of fast and slow together in a hurtfull way. thhe way halovete should have been. i have a show i am doing in july. it will be 2nd best,grounded, shadows to substance,and 2 more tba. it will be my first show i put together in denver. i have been talking to some venues and have learned that with a proper resume i can be payed to book thier shows. it will be south bend,mshawaka,chatsworth,naples all over again. thing is ill be payed for it . i have met these two guys on denverscumrecords that insist on me attending some "get togethers" at this little cafe hangout place called grumpys. its like a open mic band on the weekend kinda place. i think i will go this wedneday and see what these guys are all about.couldnt hurt right? i received info from my grandmother about my health status and it was a little more than i could stand. as if her dying from cancer wasnt bad enough they tell me that im not in the best of shape. i am going to get some blood work done on thursday behind everyones back. i dont want them to know due to the fact i dont need the attention. thanx to jenna for recominding what steps to take to see a doctor without paying for it. okay im tired i dont know when i shall update again but im sure ill have more info on these guys and the whole band thing. scooter.... oh yeah thursday gonna see the virus and the unseen next week gonna see kill hannah and thursday good times i fukin love denver post comment

ladda dee ladda dum [25 Jan 2004|02:00am] ok here i am... as i always wasnt meant to be. i saw grounded thursday and met this girl sarah she was in this band ..90/20 vision i guess they were hot stuff due to the merchandise and cds and shit she was selling. i was supposed to meet p with her at scum of the earth but i dont think i am really up for the social thing right now. perhaps some other time. ...scooter post comment

[20 Jan 2004|01:22pm] ok so david bowie,the locust, grounded,the scooterz,big head todd and the monsters,......shows having a life and all that jazz...does it get better than this? yes it does josh edward and i are getting an apartment on colfax and little ol me will be working at the bluebird soon enough... have fun losers i think of you everytime i wanna regret my past.. ...scooter post comment

[05 Jan 2004|05:10am] ok so while i am in kansas i decided to take some pics and put them on here there are also some on my profile as well. the one as my defauly is me and my home dawg. he is josh and apparently playing bass for me now. he mad up a song called suck my cock you fucking cunt. kinda repetative but entertaining . ok tomorrow we go back to denver. i can not wait. even though it is cool in kansas i am homesick already. klya keeps bugging me about hanging with her so i may as well. but to be honest i have so much shit to do before the show tomorrow. it starts at 930 and we wont get back till one i am assuming. god now i long for the days of being bored. i was so pissed earlier cause i wanted to go to colby but everyone wanted to stay and go to bills. so what did i do to deal with the mood? southern comfort. ok i now have access to a web cam its ok i suppose but i like the mystery in not knowing what people are doin at every second. so ill just leave all that alone for now.. okay i have to go.. if ya are in the denver area check me out.... pinkys monday 930 3$ grounded okay kiddies buh bye scooter post comment

[04 Jan 2004|12:53am] some people are whores and a nuesence.. just when ya get on with ya life they have to try and feel special by posting something that noone cares about.. i wish a certain whore would go to the clinic and get tested for aids... at least i would have the comfort of knowing that person would be dead and out of my life soon... .............................................................. on another note my life is so fucking wonderfull i have always got something to do and my friends come in the ten fold.. i will admit i missed fl at first but now i could give two fucks about almost everyone there.. although there are some people i really miss...only a few but they know who they are.. ............................................................. ok so we went to buffulo bills and it was the shiznit.. there are so many fuking decent folks round here makes me wonder why i can just clone my self and live in both places at once.. -------------------------------------------------------------- my hate machine is alive and well...has to be the coolest chick alive.. and my god she is beautiful. i was shown a a recent pic and ...wow.. talk about my heart stopping.. -------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------- ok so now i must go somewhere again with some friends and when we get back we our going to be very very busy.. life is soooooooooooo good and if anyone everthinks about a vacation i recommend denver.. it doesnt get much better than that,, ...scooter ------------------------ 2 comments|post comment

noone reads this [03 Jan 2004|07:56am] ok im in kansas til monday... dont ask i wont tell ya shit but trut me its big... scooter post comment

[01 Jan 2004|06:59pm] ok so here i am hungover and tired. yesterday josh kait alexis cass and i went to the flair and i met this really cool chick named tara..funny huh? anyhow she ended up buying me shots of southern comfort and then laughing when i tried to be sarcastic.. anyhow, after we left the flair (which is ahot spot for the crowd i am with) we went back to the 3rd floor met up with kyla and she brought us some gin vodka schnapps and kaluha.. well to make a long story short...5 girls only josh and i and alot of weed and alcohol. even though i didnt really want to smoke weed. dont get me wrong i did not have sex or anything but i will admit how nice it was to have more girls than guys around. vicki sent me a letter the other day.. it was nice to hear from her... i wish she would call more i miss her voice..as cheesy as it sounds.. but yeah so i got drunk and apparantly i was stateing that i wanted to impregnate minnie mouse...ha!! ok thats it for now.. scooter post comment

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